i am fully aware that nobody is perfect. and i completely embrace my imperfections.  i don’t care that my house is a mess. i don’t care that there is a ton of laundry to be done. i don’t care that my car hasn’t been vacuumed in forever. should i? what does that say about me– that i can live amongst this mess and be okay with it? it says– i just cannot do it all. i am not superwoman. yes, i would like to be. i guess i am nesting? the thought of another little one in the house is really sinking in. anyways, today was not one of those days where i was my usual self. i was NOT okay with everything. i snapped at my kids when they told me i needed to do laundry (in my head i am going, YOU DO IT!) i snapped at my kids (and chris–sorrrrrry) for EVERY little thing. ugh. and that’s how they went to school this morning. that’s a crappy way for a kid to start the day. 😦 so sorry. that’s how i’ve been feeling all morning. i put this little painted vase that kira made me on her desk with a card. i know she will forgive and this tiny gesture will mean the world to her.

today, i did 3 loads of laundry, put dinner in the crock pot, swept and mopped the kitchen floor and vacuumed my car AND trunk. that’s just house stuff- not to mention all the scrap/work stuff i had to do. yes, it felt good… but i would sure like to get back to my normal self soon. this is ridiculous.

to my husband when he has to see this in our bedroom:

trust me, this is a good angle. there is stuff EVERYWHERE. but i am in the mode. got lots to do and am crossing things off my list. feels SO good. this mojo better not go anywhere!!! as long as i got my mochi ball stash in the freezer, i think i am good. 🙂

i was tagged by the ultra talented jenni, super amazing joy and really cool rachel. i always marvel how these things make it across the blogs so quickly. lol!
Four jobs you have had in your life:
Bookstar (before it became barnes and noble)
Structure (before it became Express for Men)
Hallmark
up until last year, i hadn’t worked in about 10 years! eeek! 🙂 Caleb’s preschool
Four movies you would watch over and over:
Titanic
House of Flying Daggers
Pretty in Pink
Sleepless in Seattle
Four places you have lived:
Carlsbad, CA
Santa Barbara, CA
VIrginia Beach, VA
Lakewood, CA
Four TV shows you love to watch:
Grey’s Anatomy
Survivor
The Apprentice
ER
Barefoot Contessa
Four places you have been on vacation:
Australia xoxoxoxo
Philippines
China
Puerto Vallarta
Four websites I visit daily:
Yahoo
2peas
some blogs
Four of my favorite foods:
anything i don’t have to cook. 🙂
anything at a restaurant
Mochi balls
Four places I would rather be right now:
Getting a manicure/pedicure/massage- like joy, with joy 🙂
on a date/vacation with chris
in a really clean version of my house
sitting in a cozier computer chair
Four bloggers I am tagging:
jessi
stacey
terrie
amber

just had to share this from last night’s bath:
mom: i’m going to wash your hair tonight.
caleb: (incredulously) what?!! i didn’t sign up for that!!!!

so i have been rockin’ on making chris a cup of tea. 🙂 i get all excited when he asks me to make him one. like it’s a test or something. i’m always like, how is it? better than the last one? ever since we got back from australia, i have been gung ho on making it like they do. i’m sure i am not super close… but close enough. close enough for him to keep drinking it. and now our australian tea stash is almost gone! what to do…

well caleb brought home this cup from school today and the first thing he said to me was- can you call dad and tell him i got him a teacup? lol. so cute. it’s this little plastic, cheapy cup from oriental trading company. he was sick the week before christmas so he was just picking up his goodies today. which seems like it’s been forever since all 3 of my kids were back in school. all 3 were sick before christmas so today was like vacation for me! heehee. 🙂 and i bought baby 3 outfits today. i wasn’t kidding about starting to buy once Christmas was over. 🙂

not to let this little guy die!!!!!!!!!!

our kids each got a hermit crab from their auntie erin for christmas. chris and i are not pet people, so this was a huge deal to our kids…to let these little creatures into our home. they promised that they would take care of them… that they would be their responsibility. i half listened to all the directions erin gave us.

and then one died. cammy’s. it HAD to be cammy’s. my most emotional boy. the one who was THE most excited about the crabs. his had an eyeball painted on it’s shell. he named it EYEnstein. how cute is that?! he cried and cried. it hadn’t even been 2 weeks! ugh.

so today we went to the petstore to replace EYEnstein. this one looks just like him. and he’s quite spunky. so cam named him Verb. 🙂 🙂 🙂 i asked the pet store lady a million questions and read the instruction sheet over and over and bought a few more things for the tank that we probably didn’t really need. but-i am determined not to let the reason the crab dies be because of ME! i am all gung ho now. yes, i have been giving the dudes tap water, so that alone could have been the reason EYEnstein died. it’s not happening again, i tell you…not over tap water. natural reasons, yes, but not mom’s laziness in giving them tap water. lol!

so christmas was beautiful. food was spectacular. family was wonderful. gifts were appreciated. i didn’t take very many pictures. and i am okay with that. i did get a bunch of random shots of what we’ve been doing the last few days.
here they are:
i got a canon speedlight flash. this will do wonders in my dark little
house. i am so excited. that first pic of the boys are in our hallway,
which is totally dark. unbelievable! 🙂

one of our gifts from chris’ parents was to go on a double date with his sister and brother in law who were visiting from Washington State. we went to a hip downtown LA restaurant and then a Laker game. fun for all. i discovered my new obsession–mochi balls. yuuuuuuuuuum. and i also got my new photo tile necklace in the mail that night from my good bud, tracy – SO cute. 🙂 we had such a good night. too bad we had to come home to 6 kids. lol.

most of the days were spent hanging around the house, either ours or my inlaws. chris got a new PSP and is totally lovin the Tiger Woods Golf Game he got. the kids got so many board games and video games. we would light the fire and just play all day. we are totally cranium crazy. 🙂 i got obsessed with a 500 piece double sided Star Wars puzzle. lol. i had my little niece, jaeden, over for a few days. she got the kids skates for christmas so there were many skating adventures. and we had a storm. it rained on our beautiful rose parade!!! we didn’t even go up to see the floats. oh well. chris and i agreed that this was one of the best christmases we have had. just so relaxing, so nice to be with family. i’m glad my kids have one more week off of school, i am not ready to go back to the real world.

lastly, i had a doc visit today. it’s on the calendar now. 2 months from today. march 3rd. i will go in for my C section. so amazing. i have also been put on a iron diet. ugh. seems my little girl is sucking a lot of energy out of me (which is why i took 3 naps yesterday-lol). and the little girl gifts are starting to sprinkle in. chris got me this really cute diaper bag for christmas- he said he couldn’t resist because it looked like my scrapbooking paper. how cute. 🙂 and we got some little girlie clothes, too… onesies, cute outfit. i have been holding back buying anything for the baby until christmas is over. i guess it is totally on now. 🙂 gosh, i hope she’s a girl. lol. 🙂

that’s it! i am with an older man! a man in his 30’s!!!!!! 🙂 haha. ok, only for 5 months, but still. he has been dreading turning 30. i don’t know why. i find it rather exciting. something so mysterious about our 30’s… like we should do things different or know better than we did in our 20’s. does that even make sense? oh well. so it’s official. he is 30 today. the big three-oh. i couldn’t be prouder to have spent my last 10 years with this guy. the father of my children, my best friend who makes me laugh more than anyone, the coziest in the world. and he looks gooooooood, doesn’t he?! 🙂

we have our little growing family among us who can honestly, drive us nuts sometimes. just this morning, each child had their own unique crying tantrum/drama performance. chris and i just looked at each other and smiled. knowing that they are insane. lol. no, knowing that me and him are the team in charge of these guys. and i could not think of a better feeling. knowing he is on my team. knowing that it is me and him- together- at everything. that gives me such comfort.
happy birthday, babe. love you.
j

we spent chris’ birthday at the Laker game on Friday. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN. the kids were gone for the night. we went out to dinner, almost went to the late show at the movies, but decided not to. and just had SO much fun together. alone. we had awesome seats… all the way at the top, but in the 1st row.. so we could look down and see everything really well. it is so much fun seeing the game live. so much better than on TV! unfortunately they made me take my camera back to the car because my lens was too big- lol. anyways, we had a blast. i want to date my husband more. like every weekend. 🙂 i miss that.

jaeden and her mommy and daddy always think of the cutest gifts. they came over for Tday and gave cammy some green checkered vans and a dozen Krispy Kreme donuts! how cute is that?! shoes and donuts! who would have thought?! they even wrapped the donuts. 🙂 he was totally excited. i mean, who gets donuts for their birthday? only the coolest of cool! a whole entire box to himself. he did manage to share a few with kira and caleb. that’s totally him though. sharing with his siblings. love that!!!!