my heart’s been hurting lately. 
cameron left for camp yesterday and i can’t stop thinking about him. it’s not his first time away from home, but first time without the siblings. they are always together. at least him and caleb are.
and so i can’t stop wondering about him. looking at the clock and wondering what he’s doing. wondering about him at night and hoping he’s happy and not homesick. hoping that we did the right thing to send him. hoping that he learns so much and makes so many amazing memories. i don’t even care if he forgets to shower. i just want him to remember the chapstick and sunblock. 🙂 and to be very, very happy.
it’s not the same without him. when any of our kids is missing, it’s never the same. always a little quieter. caleb cried and cried last night for cam. broke my heart. but at the same time, i am so glad they have that bond.
i know it’s good for him. i know this is one of many times he’ll be away. i know i should be happy for him. but inside i am just a mom who loves her boy and thinks he should be home with her. if this is a tiny glimpse of what it feels like when your child goes off to college, i am going to be a wreck.
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Amen!
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Great photos……..and so sweet about Cam…..I’m sure he is having a blast!!!
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i’m so glad they are close. ugh, college, moving away from home?! i feel your pain, sister.
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awwwwww my heart is breaking here! my sil and i just drove her 15 year old to the bus that took her away from IL to colorado for 10 days and we were heartbroken , so was she, she was crying to take her home……..i feel for you trulY!
tara
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Ok, you had me before the Caleb crying part!! owie.
A dear friend once told me “Give him his wings and let him fly”…and that was just for preschool! LOL!
P.S. AMAZING photo, Jamie!
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Great photos! None of my 3 kids have gone to camp yet, but kindergarten made me weepy…He’ll be home sooner than you think! With tons of happy memories to share with you all!
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oh yea, college is a lot like that. except sometimes, they can go farther away because they don’t want to be close to home. so it might be worse. wanna know what my parents did when I went away to college (from SF Bay Area to UCI)? bought a cat. yup, that was my replacement. They still had my brother for a few more years, but once he left it was totally empty nest syndrome.
he’ll be back soon Jamie, just remember that…you have something to look forward to.
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Hey Jame,
I totally know how you feel and I am really sick about having to leave my boys next week for 16 days. I am excited about Australia but it is so hard for us moms to be apart from our children. I hope and pray Cam is having fun! Love ya! Hugs to you all.
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ohh my goodness.
this post got me teary eyed.
my younger is going to kinder{full day} this year and i am so heart broken.
i loved the comment about giving them wings. awhh.
~d
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sweet photos Jamie!
I read this and got all teary because I cant imagine how you even feel ….allthough he is problay having so much fun MOM!
hang in there 🙂
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jamie what kind of camp did he go to?
we almost signed drew up for one this summer-but i couldnt bear the thought!
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my heart is breaking for you…i am sure he is having a blast at camp.
i feel so badly for little brother.
this post will be a treasure to him when he is older.
you are such a wonderful momma!
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your boys are so adorable… it’s awesome how attached they are 🙂
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oh. must be hard. that lil caleb really loves his bro! i feel your pain.
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gasp i’m going thru the same separation anxiety w/ my son… except his summer camp days as a boy are gone. it’s a whole different feeling sending him to mini-bootcamp.
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oooooo…..
tears at my heart.
I pray that my boys are as good of friends.
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I can’t say I feel your pain, but I think if I were in your shoes, my heart would be hurting too!! I haven’t even left my kids overnight yet (ok, well I left Collin for two nights when I was in the hospital when Cayla was born).
I love that your boys love eachother so much. It’s what all us mothers hope for. And sll the photos are awesome Jamie! I really love that last one.
PS: The updated family photo on the sidebar is so cute. I love that Elsie is standing… it shows how much she’s grown since that last one you had where she was itty bitty. You have a beautiful family!
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