being home

about nine years ago, we were living far from our family in virginia beach- we had one car and I had a toddler, a baby and a kindergartner. We spent lots of time inside our home, baking, playing, jut passing time till daddy came home. I would sit around, missing my family, and finding ways to make each day seem different than the one before.I look back and think that was the hardest time of my parenting years! Now that time has passed, i can see that those years sped by, and I am longing for just a day or two of those long, cold, virginia beach days. Today as I was cleaning the boy’s room, I came across a few little toys that took me back to their little days. I ached for them. Now my days are incredibly busy with their activities and sports, which I loove them taking part in, it’s just hectic.
I suppose all this reflecting has been partly due to elsie’s new fascination with ‘toy story’—we’d watch those movies day after day- we went nowhere without buzz lightyear. And now she loves them:)
I thought about how els and I get into our daily routine of doing stuff, busying ourself and today I stopped and threw in the towel. I got on the floor with her and made endless cups of tea and read countless books. I even took her for a walk. I’ll admit that sometimes I am just not in the mood for it- I have to be in the mood 🙂 I know that in a few years I’m going to be longing for her at home with me, just as I do now with the other 3 kids. I’m so thankful to have been home with all my babies. Long days, endless chatter and all.


what can i say, im a total sap 🙂