there she goes

Lovely

off for her first summer-week away at her dad’s. you think i would be used to it by now— she’s been doing it for over 7 years now… but i’m not. up until the time she’s gone, i plan my events to include her. i try to enjoy her a little more than i usually do. i try and take the time to talk more, to connect more. because i need that bond with her. and sometimes, it’s not there. we butt heads. we argue. we don’t see eye to eye. and as she’s walking out the door, i am thinking, this will be good for us.. it’s what we need… a little break…(reality, sorry)… she gets to go to places like sea world, the wild animal park, ya know- places daddies like to take their little girls. (sorry, but it’s true).
and then i kick myself. hating that she will miss out on things that go on here. hating that she has to go in the first place. hating that she is not WITH me. 😦 and of course– looking back on all of my shortcomings with her. and so i promise… not to take a day for granted. to love her like she needs to be loved. to truly enjoy her. to do my best.

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  1. She is a beauty. Looks just like her Mom. It’s hard, I know. My 2 grandsons spend time with their Dad’s too and when they are gone we miss them. Even Grandmothers go thru this. Hang in there…as long as you know she is in good hands all will be well.

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  3. James, she’s so gorgeous! Sorry it’s time to lose her again. 😦 She’ll be back before you go to Australia, right? Why couldn’t she have gone to her dad’s THEN? 😛

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  7. i know, girl. i know.
    you are such a good mom, though, J.
    mad and kira are so much alike and are going through the same things at this age, reacting the same way.
    i think our best is more than good enough =)because it matters to us and we keep trying.
    love ya –

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